20 Pounds

Ya that's right.  9 months after having a baby and I am still carrying around 20 pounds of post-baby weight.  I knew that I was obviously not my pre-baby weight, but I didn't really care until I found out the actual number.  Ugh... now whenever I carry around Kellen (who happens to weigh 21 pounds) I keep thinking "this is the extra weight you are carrying around".  I swear it's not my fault, I discovered Nutella right after Kellen was born!  That lovely delicious goodness may or may not have contributed to my mommy weight

We all know this is really how it should be eaten, don't even try to deny it.  There are other factors to this that I don't feel like delving into at the moment.  I feel like the number on the scale is something I need to beat.  This all makes me very sad because until the other day I was pretty ok with my weight and how I looked and was content with finally not being so preoccupied with how I looked in the mirror.  And so I am giving myself a goal of getting back down to my pre-baby weight before I pop out the next kid.  Which means no more of this

Less cake and more fruits and veggies makes Alicia a grumpy girl, but I keep trying to tell myself I will be a happy healthy girl.  Ugh, the word healthy makes me grumpy already...