Anxiety, you suck.

Confession time: I can be an anxious person. Not all the time, but when it hits it really sucks. Especially when it comes to social situations.  All I can think about is what judgmental or unkind thing someone might think or say about me.  I close off  completely and I end up feeling miserable. It is exhausting and I am tired of letting anxiety be in charge. I have decided to take charge of my anxious tendencies. Which is incredibly huge for me. I want to be able to be around people and not spend the whole time internally freaking out about what awful things someone may or may not be thinking about me. I want stop internalizing other's reactions to me. I want to kick the horrible demon that is anxiety out of my life.